Tuesday, December 6, 2016

November (Personal) Wrap-up 2016

Oi! This is going to be a very different kind of wrap-up post. I only read one book in November and that's because it was for book club.

All The Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr. I haven't even written a review for it yet. I will. I promise.

As for favorites or least favorites um...well. I didn't particularly like the one book I read so I guess I'll just skip that part of my wrap-up.

And now for my long winded recap of this hellish month! The reason I haven't been reading etc.

So, I've been married just over three years now and I'm no spring chicken so my husband and I have been trying for kids for the entire three years....With no luck. I won't go into details but we tried just about everything except IVF.  And then, just when we'd given up and stopped trying everything, in October, we got that little pink line! We were pregnant! I couldn't believe it. I was beyond ecstatic. I told my family and close friends right away! I couldn't help myself. On Halloween, Oct 31st, the morning sickness started. My whole family has had it so I knew there was no getting out of it. And it was awful. Really awful! The smell sensitivities, the nausea, the puking, the food aversions. Oi! I spent all my time lying on the couch trying to keep food down and re-watching Gilmore Girls so I'd be all ready for the comeback episodes. (I'm still working on the last season so please, no spoiling the comeback yet!)

My first doctors appointment was November 21st. I was so nervous and by the time the 21st came I was beside myself. I kept getting this horrible feeling like something was wrong. There was no way I was lucky enough to have everything be normal and okay....I was right. :( We went in to the doctors office and met with a midwife, talked for a bit and then went in for the ultrasound. The minute my uterus came onto that screen my heart broke. There was nothing but an empty gestational sac. I knew exactly what I was looking at before the midwife said a thing. There was supposed to be a 9 week old baby in that sac and it just wasn't there. Of course the midwife was flustered and kept leaving the room and coming back. She was trying to find out how to measure the sac. She explained what I already knew. There was supposed to be a baby in there and there was nothing there. I had what is called a blighted ovum. Which means the baby stopped developing at 4-5 weeks but my body didn't get the message and the gestational sac and placenta kept growing and raising my HCG levels.

I was sent to the hospital for blood work to see what my HCG levels were and given some options for miscarrying as I still needed to face the fact that I needed to get my uterus cleaned out.

My husband and I drove home in silence in pouring rain and then sat in the driveway crying together.

After another HCG test we saw my levels were dropping so I chose to let the miscarriage come naturally. It came on December 3rd. I won't go into the details of that hellish experience but I will tell you I had two weeks to mourn so passing the tissue was a relief. I feel at peace now. As peaceful as you can feel after something like that.

On top of all this my family just found out that my mother has breast cancer that has spread all over into her body. I won't say more on that because we're still pretty in the dark on the whole thing.

Needless to say, you can probably see now why I only read one book this month. Sorry to be a downer. I just wanted to share my story with you guys. It's therapeutic to talk about it. I'm obviously still sad but I'm alright. It's not something I'd ever want to go through again and something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy but I have learned from this experience  and am OK. Thanks for reading, if you still are. Love you guys! You're a great community that I love and feel safe enough to share my experience with.

See you around the blogosphere!

Thursday, November 17, 2016

Mini Movie Reviews #10

The Accountant 
For some reason I was expecting a movie based on a true story or maybe just something a little more boring. I ended up being pleasantly surprised. This one was a lot of fun and I ended up really liking it. I know people have a love/hate relationship with Ben Affleck but I like him just fine and really enjoyed him in this role. I've always been a fan of dark comedies and by that I mean violent but funny. I know, it's weird. Just smile and nod.

Ouija Origin of Evil
As I may have mentioned before, my husband and I have completely different preferences when it comes to movie genres. But one type of movie we can always agree on is horror. So we see a lot of them. Most horror movies are horrible. With no real purpose but to scare you, they sort of forget they need a story line. This one fell into that rut. Totally lame. It was scary for about two minutes and then got lame and went down hill from there. Wouldn't recommend it.

I was really looking forward to this one. My husband hates movies like this but is a great sport about going....as long as he gets popcorn. This one was amazing, guys. I loved it. It's not about scary aliens attacking and men in the world pulling up their pants, spitting then pulling out guns to show how awesome they are. It was much more calm, scientific and beautiful. I saw the big surprise coming from a mile away but I still loved it. You should totally go see this one. Just don't expect action and crap. This is NOT Independence Day. It's better than that.

Friday, November 11, 2016

Review: Blood Harvest

Title Blood Harvest
By S. J. Bolton
Genre Adult Suspense
Rating ⭐️⭐️

When the Fletchers built their house in Heptoncough near the church and the graveyard they didn't know what was in store for them. In a town with as many secrets as weird rituals anything can happen.

First Sentence
"She's been watching us for a while now."

I've heard good things about this author so I knew I'd want to check out her books and decided on this one because it sounded perfectly atmospheric. (I read it in October) At over 400 pages I was worried it might drag a bit but thankfully was wrong. The book speeds along with just enough creepiness to keep the pages turning.

However, (there had to be a "however") the book was very predictable. I could see what was happening a mile away. And it was one of those things you see but kind of hope you're wrong because it's far too obvious. Nope. I was right on the mark. And what I was right about just made me sick! The big reveal, the evilness revealed was just awful. It made me squirm to read about it.

And what really angered me about the whole book was, not only did I see the whole thing coming, and got grossed out by it but there was no justice served! The bad people took the easy way out and everything was just covered up. I was livid!

So, yeah, I'm not so sure I should give this author another shot. The writing was done well enough but the story angered me. Will the rest of her books anger me too? Is it worth seeing? I just don't know.

Should you read it?
I seem to be in the minority again. I always am. Sigh! So, you might like it.

Wednesday, November 2, 2016

October Wrap-Up 2016

Hey guys! Despite my blogging slump my reading seems to be doing OK. I didn't think I read 6 books in October but I did. This makes me happy. If I really cram maybe I can meet my Goodreads goal after all. That means I have to read 9 books in November and 9 books in December...hmmm. Probably not going to happen but a girl can try, right? Anyway, Here's what I read in October.

The Girl with all the Gifts by M.R. Carey, Dead Ringer by Jessie Rosen, Behind Closed Doors by B.A. Paris, The Sculptor by Scott McCloud, The Coldest Girl in Coldtown by Holly Black and Blood Harvest by S.J. Bolton

Favorites of the month were The Sculptor and Behind Closed Doors. Least Favorites:  Dead Ringer and Blood Harvest.

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

Review: The Coldest Girl in Coldtown

Title The Coldest Girl in Coldtown
By Holly Black
Genre YA Supernatural/Paranormal
Rating ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Tana lives in a world with vampires. Most are locked away in walled cities called Coldtowns. But when she wakes up the morning after a party surrounded by corpses and her on again off again boyfriend is infected, it's obvious there's vampires loose. But why do they have one of their own chained up and why does Tana decided it would be a good idea to help him?

First Sentence
Tana woke lying in a bathtub.

I adore Holly Black's Curse Workers series but have always been hesitant to try one of her other books after a bad attempt at reading Tithe. I'd heard good things about this one though so I gave it a try. I wasn't blown away or anything but as you can see, I gave it 4 stars. I enjoyed Black's take on vampires. As usual, Black creates a flawless world that seamlessly comes together with no confusion or over explaining.

I always love her characters too. They have a history and depth. They aren't just puppets to tell a story but these multidimensional people that you can't help but feel empathy for.

The romance in this one? So steamy! I had to fan myself a few times. It was that good.

My only real complaint about the book is that it's a standalone. I usually enjoy that but when I like a world and characters this much I want more. I don't want this to be the end. I'm all for open endings but in this case I would love to know what happens.

Should you read it? 
If you like vampires and kick ass heroines, yes!